Let's Rewind

I just want to say, that I am loving Spring Break. I only work 3.75 hours every day, but for some reason getting up at the crack of dawn and out of the house seems rough some days.

I am so torn about Reed and what to do with school next year. On one hand, I want to take the time while he is young and impressionable to mold his spirit, to teach him the things of God, and to protect him from the crazy world. On the other hand, it's a large undertaking to commit to homeschooling. If you know me, then you also know that I am not the world's most organized person! And Eli, my Lord help us, how am I going to get anything accomplished with that little bundle of energy? The elementary school that I work at, has so many godly wonderful teachers, so I know Reed would be in good hands. I look at my future sister in law, Amy a first grade teacher, who would be any parents DREAM for their child to have. I also hate to give up my job, when so many people are begging for one. What to do, what to do? You all don't understand, I have been debating this issue within my soul for 2 years now, dreading the day, that Reed would have to go to school. I need to stop typing about it, and be on my knees. Sometimes writing is theraputic, and I need to get this off my chest.

I feel like my life has been turned upside down lately. So much change, so much of what I thought was stable, has now been disrupted. For the record, I am not down with all this change, I didn't vote for change! My new slogan is 'Back to the way things were, let's REWIND'. Rewind to when prayer was in schools, when teacher's could spank kids, and when God was PC. The Lord shakes the foundations of what I hold as true, to show me that HE is the only thing that is true, who never leaves. I keep thinking about that day, when I stand before Jesus and realize that all along, it was just him and I. Things change, people come and go, people let you down, material things wither, children grow up, but truly throughout the course of my life, only my Savior was there through it all. He stuck closer than a brother, a true friend, who knows me in and out, and still loves me.